Back when I was a regular Knottie/Nestie/Bumpie (before life got in the way and when I used to actually post on this blog several times a week), we did (and they probably still do) Dear… posts that we either thanks or rants or just little things we needed to get off our chests. In reminiscence of that, I’m doing mine own here. Feel free to chime in.
Dear precious sleeping baby boy,
When I check on you during the night, I can’t help but think, “Lord, how did I ever deserve something so precious and wonderful?” Thank you for being the best accident we ever made. We love you so, so much and wouldn’t change anything about you. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. I’m glad I have a temporary pause that allows me to cherish you all to myself every Tuesday and Thursday. I can hear that you just turned on your seahorse to help you go back to sleep since I so rudely had to put my hand on your belly to make sure you’re still breathing, and I’m sorry for making you stir, but you are just so darn cute that I couldn’t help myself.
I think about you a lot. I miss teaching, but you’re like an old boyfriend – the good times are great memories and I’ll never forget you, but there is a reason that we weren’t meant to be together. I hope we never lose touch, especially since you brought me close to so many amazing people. I think I can finally understand what happened on both sides and I feel comfortable with my decision. Maybe one day we’ll work together again when we’ve both matured a bit and had time to reflect.
Thank you for bringing us Clark, even if we thought we weren’t ready for him yet. He has brought so much joy to our lives. Thank you also for showing me my path in life, and for nudging me with gentle reminders that it will pay off in the long run.
Even though I already said this once in a comment, your post on envy really put my latest feelings into perspective. Seriously, I think I might print it out and post it somewhere as a little reminder that we are doing SO much better than so many other people and that our situation is actually quite amazing. Yes, we live with my parents, but we have a great relationship and after nine months, we haven’t killed each other. We’ve also paid off a ton of debt, been able to give my parents so much joy in an amazing relationship with Clark and help them finance some of the things they need for their home, dealt very well with the reduction of my teaching job, allowed Jason to concentrate on school and speed up his degree by a year, and given me the opportunity to find my dream job! I don’t have the best clothes, or even a home to call my own at this point, but I have my amazing family, my health, my own business, the ability to stay at home two days a week with my son, $12,000 less debt than we had on our own, and most importantly, a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you. You are an amazing actress, and if you keep pushing yourself, you will hit it big someday. You have a lot of people that love and support you, even from afar. Get it, girl.
Dear real estate,
Thank you for finding me, somewhat serendipitously and haphazardly, and combining my passions into one fluid motion. I feel like I haven’t really been working for the last few months, even though I’ve been putting in lots of hard work. It’s funny how that happens. I know it’s a down economy and sometimes I get discouraged, but with my first closing coming up in the next week or so (and enough cash to almost match what I netted as a teacher!), I can’t complain because my goal for this year was to replace my teaching income, which I’ve almost done. Thanks for bringing me to Active Rain, which helps me to keep focused, and to an amazing brokerage where I feel fully supported. I’m sorry that I feel compelled to start temping a bit now so when things dry up for the winter, we’ll be ahead of the game, but the beautiful thing is that you like to meet me most outside of office hours! As the economy gains its strength back over the next several years, I know we’ll grow old together.
I miss having you all compacted within a quarter mile radius so that no matter how busy life got, you were always 100 steps away. Traveling to a million places all over the country doesn’t fit my lifestyle right now (see: Dear real estate) even though I would love to. We are slowly and methodically planning trips to see as many of you as possible, starting with Twinnie and Husband in September, and hopefully adding My Tamela and The Best Marine Archaeologist Ever to our list very soon, followed by N’Orleans shortly after, but limited budget is, well…. limiting. Know that I sincerely love you all and wish I could stretch out the hours of the day and the dollars in my pocket. Let’s Skype soon, okay?
I’m sorry that I haven’t loved you like I should have in the last year. I know it’s just another excuse, but things have been hectic and busy. I will never give up on you, though. You are a huge part of me. I promise that I’ll start my craftiness and home-loving-ness again soon because I realize, while you love any post I give you, Clark is not the only thing in the world and he’s not my only hobby. And I’ve been cheating on you a bit with my real estate blog which I’ve been trying to get off the ground, but I promise you that it doesn’t even get to have the same kind of content that you get. You are my baby and I do eventually want to build you up to the shiny blog you deserve to be. Keep trucking with me – it will all work out in the end.
Dear Ashley (aka N’Orleans),
You are my one true bloglove. You always read my posts and comment. I don’t deserve you. Thanks for always being there.
Alright, I think over 1100 words is enough for one night.